i'm loving you and i'm sorry

I may stop worrying about forever as it does not exist with us, will be fed up of hearing it but one thing for sure, you may say i may not be your forever, cannot be the mom of your kid, cannot be accepted by everyone, cannot be the "woman" of your dreams, cannot be the "queen" of your world. the big mistake that ever happen to your life... Remember these, i may be a woman that you never ever dreamt of having, that you never thought such this exist and you may get tired of loving the person not even par to your standards, i may not be your forever but i will always make you happy every moment of your lives, i cannot be the mom of your kid but i'm willing to be the other mom, i cannot be accepted by everyone but if you will accept me i don't need everyone, i cannot be the woman of your dreams because i'm the person you've never thought of loving, i cannot be the queen of your world but you will always be my world. I am your big mistake and yes, i will always be, but one thing for sure, I will always love you purely with all my hearts and soul, you will always be the reason why i dont want to sleep and why i'm excited to be awaken.

it does not "matter"

When i tell you my love story you will laugh and say i'm a coward
But then again, I will talk back and say I don't mind to be one.

Love never chooses the level of IQ you have
Love never chooses the race of origin you belong
Love never chooses the color of your skin and the similarity of food you eat
Love never chooses how much money you have in your bank account
Love never chooses how you look
Because after all, love is not all about the things you see, hear and feel
You cannot even tell that love just struck you
and damn! it feels so so good.

I prefer to be different
I prefer to be out-of-ordinary
I prefer to be with you until the next day of my forever.
I prefer just you and me
Us together, forever!

sleep while you can

sometimes the reason why you wake up 

is also the reason why you want to be asleep forever

Too much love will kill you

I was lost and found. I'm always wishing every day I won't be lost again. Somehow, one time in my life someone came and change my whole world. I never thought of writing sad blog but i just can't help how the wheel of life change in an instant.

I came to a place where I thought I will be finally left alone, not minding "other" people and just minding me, myself and I. I always thought I am better be left alone as i can't just stand the pain of being in love. Love is somehow gives me a reason to fight either to be better or to be different. I chose to be different, i chose to just mind myself and not others, i chose just to finally live my LIFE. 

I will never forget the days where I wish I will just be awaken. You are too good to be real...

Shall i give you away?

Shall i give way?

Shall i stop breathing then?

Shall i stop living then?

If letting you go will give you happiness, i will do that. That would be the worst pain i would ever feel.

This is not another love songs that you normally hear, this is not being inspired by any of the movies you have watched. But this is how you will be living with me in our surreal world. I don't have anything to offer but love, you may get tired of the love I give but i will never ever get tired of loving you every day of my life.

I will write the next chapter of how my life and love for you will end when this chapter closes. But then again, I don't like this to end -- my life will end but not our love story.

Once you will have a chance to reflect, just think of this... if you love me more please,  please think if you can really like to live your life with me forever... 

reaction

When you find a person that you have ever dreamed before, the chance of losing that person forever is depending on how you will react. Following what makes you happy will start a new story. Forget the what ifs and think of the what is.

Looking beyond Seeing

Sometimes people tend to forget that it is not how you stare matters but how you see beyond what you are looking. 

I, myself loves staring on anything. Sometimes, I stare just to relax my mind and free my thoughts. Normally, I do it after meal. The funny thing is whenever people ask me of what I'm thinking, I always say nothing. Have you ever thought of thinking nothing? I do it most of the time and it somehow helps me to relax.

The beauty of things is dependent on how you look at it.

Score!

When you look, i feel like ice cream under the sun --- i melted away. 

And when you kiss, it feels like i'm the "queen of the world". 

And when you make love with me, i feel like i'm the only blessed creature and child of God. 

Never in my wildest imagination that a star from heaven will come down and kiss the dirt of the earth.

Kiss

Your hug is like a kiss from the sun--- it is too hot!

and your kiss kills my stresses away and rejuvenate me!

mere enough

I can't complain even if you are doing nothing 

Your mere presence is enough

Perfume!

Everyday when i wake up, i always thank God for the new life
especially my sight which remains intact as i open it up in the morning
and see one of the beautiful creations at my side.

I thank God that my touch never fails to feel even your absence.

I thank God that my feeling always feels being loved a hundred folds

Your scent linger too deep,  it tattooed in my soul 

Even I'm just imagining you, I can smell you from a far

loving you is like eating...necessary

There are so many changes that happened in our lives 

but there are still things that wont change... one of which is YOU and I. 

I love you always and the next moment after it.

I love change!

One day, one time I came alone in this unknown place. 

Dreaming of having new change in my life 

and to my surprise you're the biggest, best ever, 

unexpected, wildest, overwhelming change that i will never ever forget. 

So, please be as permanent as "change"...

i use my senses and it says...

Every day is a struggle which reminds you that you are alive 

and every struggle becomes a surprise of a lifetime

and a surprise becomes a big blessing 

thus, thank the struggle as you have received the blessing of a lifetime...

YOU!

i'm me, more better than yesterday and a lot better than today!

Sex preference is a choice, attitude is what you are towards your peers. 

Thus, do not be confused... The former does not define the latter...

Looking thru the lenses - A new hue approach!

Glazing down thru the horizon of my camera seems another world. Since when I was a kid, I'm dreaming of travelling and capturing natures surreal view. And alas! I did it somehow!

A moment is more than enough to forget "days-living" thus live by a moment not by the day